Cillian

"I love talking about nothing. It's the only thing i know anything about - Oscar Wilde
I saw that on a Cillian movie!"

those are the text messages i received from my mother. my mother is fucking AWESOME! if you don't know who Cillian is, then we simply aren't friends.

sister, project

so, i know i don't really mention it, but i have a sister. a half sister. she's like, 6 years older than me and lives in Kalamazoo. something we have in common, maybe it's genetic, we're not good with communication. i mean, once we're talking we can go on and on. it's just that you have to get us talking first.

so, i'm REALLY bad at communication. those of you reading this blog may disagree. you may be thinking about how you've never had a problem communicating with me. and i'd have to tell you that there's a very good reason for this: i'm REALLY trying!!!

i mean, i am NOT USED to trying. i'm kind of a "we'll talk when we get around to it" kind of person. but i don't really want to be that kind of person anymore. and getting back to people first chance i get is part of that change.

long story short, i talked to my sister yesterday. and we hadn't talked in like, a month or two. and i don't know her very well. we've only been in contact for about a year now. not very long at all. but we now have a plan to talk to each other every other Sunday. which i like. cuz it's kind of nice having another sibling. :) especially when your sister is this really nice person who is always trying to find good things to be doing. like, she takes on charity projects. and the company she works for is a charity. and, yeah, she's kind of awesome. i'm glad she's a nice person and not... i don't know. it would suck to talk to your sister and find out she's vapid and evil. i mean, this could have gone in the complete opposite direction. this could've been a blog about how horrified i am at what a horrible person she is. but she's not. so... yay!

also, i'm always doing some sort of project now. which i like. i really do. i have one more thing to do for hotnerdsexy, and then i only have to worry about producing episodes for a while. :) oh, yeah! i redesigned the website! check it out: hotnerdsexy.com

i'm really proud of that site! i've never designed a website before, so... yeah. happy it turned out so well. :)

ok, it's time to leave the working. so i will be to talking some other times, yeah? hopefully soon. hopefully with even more stuff accomplished that i can update about. :)

...there were a lot of smileys in this blog. and it turned out disjointed due to time constraints. :/ ah, well.

dull dreaming

"sitting under my desk, making swirls in my cocoa."

that is how i would like to update my twitter status. unfortunately, i work in the front office, so instead i am limited to only making swirls. no sub-desk adventures for me. :/

wow. if i didn't work in the front and have to be presentable, my co-workers would think i was insane. ...well, considerably more insane than they think i am now.

so, hi blog. i was feeling a bit down last time i visited. and it wasn't that i was being cryptic about it or anything. it's just that's how low i felt. i couldn't even fathom the words to describe how i felt. i feel a bit better now, though.

as always, i'm working on side projects. right now i'm working on the #hotnerdsexy website. by the time i'm done it's going to be very clean and simple. and all things considered that is proving to be a bit difficult. the thing is, i keep thinking of things it would be cool to do and then having to figure out how to do them. i need to focus on doing the re-launch, and then worrying about the bells and whistles. but alas, i am forever getting ahead of myself.

thinking of #hns, we're recording a new episode today! i think it's gonna be better than last episode. everything was out of sorts last episode. kinda sub-par. this episode will be much better. even with me feeling kinda sleepy. i'm gonna get caffeinated on my way home. :)

i still feel like #hns could use something, but i don't know what yet. ah well. we'll come across it soon enough.

so now i've got 20 minutes left of work. and i really felt like leaving early today. the only reason i didn't is because i came in late. so i figured it'd be best to stick it out. though it would have been much easier to stick it out from under my desk. the light wouldn't be as bright down there. i could drape my sweater over the front and make an office fort. and i could see who's coming and be able to deflect them with ease. (mostly by calling out in a small, muffled voice, "no one's here!") it would be awesome.

ok. it's only been five minutes since our last time check, but i've had enough. i'm gonna assume no one will care or notice if i'm gone in the next 5 minutes.

*escapes*

low

i'm feeling kinda low today. i just really wish my friends were ITPR. i usually don't feel sad, cuz i know i'll get to meet them all eventually. i pretend that it's just gonna be in a week or a month. not a long wait at all. but for some reason, today i feel the distance, and it hurts.

sorry my first blog in forever is so short and so down. but i needed to get that out, and i don't really feel like saying anything else.